I texted my two best friends in the whole world yesterday "You ever have those days where you just feel down?" And with one being 2 hours down the road, and the other one clear across the country, they both knew exactly what to say to make me feel better (they also made me cry because of how much they understood and can relate to me). They get me. I thank God for these two women every day.
They reminded me that it doesn't matter that I'm almost 31 and not married with kids. What I'm doing with my life is amazing and not many people can say that they've done what I'm doing. I remind myself daily that a lot of women I know have not done half the things I've done - bought a house, live and survive without a roommate, know how to mow the grass (it's easier to pay the guy $20 when you're in school and too busy, but I know how to and I've done it - a lot), cook a meal for 1 person (without leftovoers - that's impressive), manage to survive a Masters degree program (while buying a house, living in renovations and raising a puppy) and currently surviving a doctorate program ALL BY MYSELF. Yall, I'm going to be a doctor in 2.5 years.
Some days it's really hard doing life alone, but when I have my two best friends and my amazing family, I realize just how good I have it. I might not have the financial support of a husband or a roommate, but I chose this life and I chose it because it's right for me. When that right person comes along, I'll know it. They'll support my education endeavors and be ok with how much time I spend writing papers. They'll want me to be the best version of me that I can be. And until I find that person, I'm completely ok being alone because I'm surrounded by so many people that love me and support me even though I took some different turns down this road we call life. It took me a long time to get to the point of knowing who I am in this world, and I have my setbacks every now and then, but sometimes I just need that reminder to remember who I am and that I am enough.
So if anyone else reading this feels like they're alone in this world because you took a different path, just know that you're not. There are people that love you unconditionally, and they want you to succeed and be the best version of you that you can be. So just keep doing your thing and KNOW THAT YOU ARE ENOUGH.
